Monday, April 5, 2010

Day 220 or The Countdown Begins

Three Months from tonight will be my last post as 38 and Growing. It's hard to believe that I am over 2/3 of the way through this project. A lot has happened. I have met such BEAUTIFUL people. I still have a lot I want to do. So the clock is ticking. The calendar pages are turning. Like the Byrds sang, to everything there is a season -- turn, turn, turn.

So thank you for going along with me. I learn from you. I lean on you. Like a friend on a drive, you make singing to the radio a thousand times more fun.

All my life, I've known that I was weird. Growing up, well, weird is not cool. It's not endearing or interesting, it's... you know, weird. Now I won't lie to you, weirdness does not become suddenly cool in your 30's. (Interesting, maybe. Endearing, to those who already love you) But something can happen and did happen. Not in my 20s. Not in most of my 30s. But this year. This 39th year of life.

Drum Roll, please...

I stopped caring! I'm not cool. Or collected, for that matter. I am no Grace Kelly floating through the room in Dior couture. (Don't tell my mom this. She has somehow decided that I look like the Princess. It's just proof that there is no end to a mother's love. But for those of living on Earth...) I am no Michelle Pfeiffer looking for a "Cool Rider" with my Pink Lady jacket and a forbidden cigarette strutting across the school lawn. (Yes, I know ONJ as Sandy was in the better film and a WAY better singer but I wanted to be Stephanie in the second film). I am no Man eater -- Glenn Close, for example -- meeting men, having them fall in love with me and never getting clingy or worse yet, goofy. Goofy, I invented goofy. Walt Disney might hold the trademark but I mastered it!

So not cool. So weird. So goofy. That is me. And I have decided that I kind of like it. Surprising, huh? So thanks for coming by to visit the not cool, weird, goofy girl.

So my cool, collected, graceful friends, please keep coming to see me as I put this project to bed. On July 6th, I won't be 38 anymore, but I hope that I'll still be growing. If you've got any ideas for the name of the next incarnation, let me now. You have exactly 91 days to share. :-)

18 comments:

Frau said...

39 and so fine! Okay that is cheesy! Weird and goofy are the new cool, everybody knows that! I'm glad you are not totally going away, just growing older and wiser.

AlyGatr said...

How about "39 and Counting" or maybe "Still Not 40"?

Wait, is weird bad? If so, then I was in trouble a long time ago. I don't do normal all that well, so I figure, why try?

Traci said...

Still Not 40. I like that!
:-)
Traci

Aging Mommy said...

From one uncool person to another - who cares :-) As for being weird as we Brits say, "there's nowt so queer as folk" or in the words of my father "everybody is strangely peculiar in their own unique way".

How about "39, So Not Cool and Loving It"?

chitra said...

Hello Traci,
I am back after a short break. I missed you a lot.
Give any name to your posts. Chitra would be there to read and enjoy it:)

Technolustmaxx said...

I love The Byrds.

Nancy C said...

I love not worrying about being cool. So liberating.

How about: Just a Number

Tiffany said...

That is very liberating!

Lorenza said...

Oh Traci , it is so nice to be weird if you are truly yourself! Such a freedom...keep on being "weird" if you feel free

XXX

Aunt of 14 said...

I love weird and goofy. My favorite combination in people!! I think cool is overrated anyway. All it does is hurt people or make people hurt themselves in the attempt to be "cool" so, nah, not my kind of pie.

"Just me" or "Just Traci"
or... "As Life Goes On..."

Tired Mom T├ęsa said...

Congrats on not caring! It's got to be so freeing. I'm not quite there yet, but hope to be someday!

Momma Such said...

I love that you are goofy and not perfect! I would so much rather hang out in a room with a weirdo than some perfectionist..ha ha!

How about...
Still Growing
Growing Up-Not old
Still Silly As Ever

I'll have to keep thinking. I can't wait to hear what you choose! :)

Mc Allen said...

wow, what a seriously great idea. Im so glad you are here to stay, cute blog!! xoxo LA

Mc Allen said...

wow, what a seriously great idea. Im so glad you are here to stay, cute blog!! xoxo LA

Mc Allen said...

wow, what a seriously great idea. Im so glad you are here to stay, cute blog!! xoxo LA

....Petty Witter said...

Yeah, I'm all for Still Not 40. A thought provoking post. Weird may not be cool but, as it's you, it is special. From one weird, not cool child to another, I love your goofy blog.

Traci said...

I love all the suggestions!!! Now I have some thinking to do.
:-)
Traci

mama-face said...

I knew there was a reason I like you so much-it takes one weird one to know one.

I thought you were quitting for good for a moment...don't scare me like that.

Happy Birthday...90 days from now? :)