Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Day 118 or How Traci Got Her Joy Back


Wow! I was gone a long time. I just needed a little space after a roller coaster week. Last week truly represented very high highs and very low lows. Thank you to all of you who shared in both of those extremes. I am moved by the love that I received. But as Robbie Nevil sang (way too many years ago!) "C'est la Vie" or that is life. Whether I like it or not, the lows are as much a part of life as the highs.


So yesterday, I started seeing again and by seeing I mean, opening the eyes of my heart. I saw a man whose coat was torn and open to the lining. My jacket is whole, warm, and pretty cute. I saw two young mothers (not unlike myself) standing on a corner asking for help. I went home to a small but cozy, happy apartment with a full fridge and two happy kids. I saw a retail worker in a store quietly cry as she hung up merchandise. She seemed as if she had not a friend in the world. Since I started blogging, I have made friends all over the world. So much like my money moping a couple of weeks ago, I saw that I had so much more high than low. I thanked God for the time we still have with my FIL and the hope we have received there and I thanked God that Tuna Boy was is no pain and had provided so many years of happiness and companionship. And then I said a prayer for those who did not have what I have.


Finally, my son, along with his precious sister, helped me find those joy colored glasses. (I've put a clapper on them so I don't lose them again!) We went to see lights around the hill country and I listened as my children ooooohed and aaaaahed. And I laughed as they obliterated the lyrics of every Christmas Carol. And I thought, "yeah, life is pretty good".


So thank you for indulging me. But I'm back (I know you were all waiting with baited breath). Stayed tuned... I just got my Secret Santa gift last night. Yay! That post to follow shortly and I have an award to give plus I have an announcement. So to those of you who are still coming after my four day hiatus... More is to come!

7 comments:

Sonya said...

Traci when things start to pile up we go into automatic mode and sometimes taking a step back and just letting yourself feel those highs and lows is natural and good for you. If you don't allow yourself that, it piles up and gets worse.

I loved this post and like you, have had some set backs,dealing with an ill family member and then dealing with the loss that came with it. My wish for you is that you do not have to deal with that last part. It's hard to keep putting one foot infront of the other but you are doing it and will continue to do it with joy colored glasses!

kys said...

I'm glad you found your rose-colored glasses. Mine are a little out of focus right now.

Nancy Campbell said...

Life is so wavy sometimes, and blogging has helped me process each wave, and my reaction to them.

Sending prayers and good thoughts....

F said...

That is one of my FAVORITE songs, ever!!! We drove around last night too and it does help to hear the kids oh and ah, doesn't it?

Betty Manousos:cutand-dry.blogspot.com said...

Traci, i'm so glad you feel good!again.I was checking your site to see if you were back.
Ok. love and hugs

Unknown Mami said...

An announcement! I can't wait. Oh, hurry up and tell us.

chitra said...

Count your blessings, Its said. and you have given wonderful examples. The way you care about your FIL shows you are a wonderful person. Love you dear.