Saturday, February 13, 2010

Day 169 or Finding My Footing

Back in August, I started this blog to chronicle my attempt to live more fully. After years of feeling adrift without a strong compass in my pocket, I wanted to find my path and get moving on it. And I did feel like I had developed some traction.

As many of you know, I have a rough start to the year. Big Bad Illness took me out for two weeks and then the very untimely passing of my FIL. Now I started 2010 with a lot of hope (and several more blogs which are wasting away at the moment) and these events have shaken me off my newly found course a bit. But I am committed to getting back on solid footing and making 2010 my year. A year that I can look back on and say that was a year that I lived. Truly lived. So I'm starting the New Year over.

Losing a loved one can drain passion from life. It can make the world seem colder and more lonely. Or it can inspire you to breathe a little deeper, hug a little longer, and live a little better. So in my 2010 reboot, I am choosing the latter. I am choosing life.

So once again, I begin my climb up the mountain. A little shaky maybe but I'm still climbing. Can't say I won't lose my footing again but if I do, I will dust myself off and start climbing again. Because as many have said before me, life is not about the destination but the journey or if you prefer, as John Lennon said in his beautiful song, "Darling Boy", life is what happens when you are busy making plans.

Close your eyes,
Have no fear,
The monsters gone,
He's on the run and your daddy's here,

Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,

Before you go to sleep,
Say a little prayer,
Every day in every way,
It's getting better and better,

Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,

Out on the ocean sailing away,
I can hardly wait,
To see you to come of age,
But I guess we'll both,
Just have to be patient,
Yes it's a long way to go,
But in the meantime,

Before you cross the street,
Take my hand,
Life is just what happens to you,
While your busy making other plans,

Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,
Darling,
Darling,
Darling Sean.

16 comments:

mama-face said...

I'm out here as your bloggy friend cheering you on. Who says the new year has to be Jan 1? As you long as you keep on climbing with all your heart you will be successful. And when your heart needs some help in the climb let us know.

:)

BONNIE K said...

I love that song. Attitude is everything. I seem to know more and more people who just feel defeated by life, and that's not a good thing.

Tracy said...

Some people beleive the New Year actually begins on your birthday! I kinda like that one!

Or how about we have the new year begin this Sunday, not only is it Valentine's Day but it's also the Chinese New Year, it's the year of the White Metal Tiger! Sounds pretty strong to me!

Thanks for stopping by Ascending Butterfly today!

Tracy
Ascending Butterfly
http://ascendingbutterfly.blogspot.com

B Sparkly said...

I have an award over at my place for you! Enjoy! Have a great weekend!

Anat

chitra said...

Good post. You will have a wonderful year . My wish.

Betty Manousos:cutand-dry.blogspot.com said...

I love that song , Tracie.
Have a great weekend with your precious family!
Betty xx

Optimal Optimist said...

Hi! I just found your blog and I love it. May you reach all of your goals and then some, and find all the joys in life along the way. I'm hoping to inspire others to do the same through my blog, so maybe I can be of a little help along your journey. I just became a follower of yours...and hope you'll follow me too!
Best Wishes
http://optimaloptimist.blogspot.com

Momma Such said...

What a beautiful post!
I'm so glad you are back and are going to move forward. I look forward to reading your posts from here forward. :)

Nancy C said...

You're just starting your year with the Chinese this year. You've got us all cheering for you.


And, oh do I ever love that song!

Renee Weatherford said...

I love that song... I hope your year is full of ups!! Stopping by from the Lady Blogger's Tea Party :)

Karen MEG said...

I'm so sorry for the loss of your FIL..you are absolutely right, the way you've written, it can drain the life from you...but then you choose life, because that's exactly what your loved ones would want you to do.

thanks for finding my blog and for your lovely comment. I'll enjoy getting to "know" you here :).

Beautiful post.

Nezzy said...

What a beautifully written post. My heart goes out to you but I'm lovin' your attitude. Your starting off the Chinese New Year with a bang! I have always love that song.

Take care, God bless and have the most beautiful day!!!

Tired Mom Tesa said...

What a wonderfully positive attitude! I love the thought of "re-booting." I may borrow that for my life every now and then. Great song choice too, I love that phrase as well.

Unknown Mami said...

I love that song; it makes me cry every time I hear it.

Keri said...

Your killin me!

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