Back in August, I started this blog to chronicle my attempt to live more fully. After years of feeling adrift without a strong compass in my pocket, I wanted to find my path and get moving on it. And I did feel like I had developed some traction.
As many of you know, I have a rough start to the year. Big Bad Illness took me out for two weeks and then the very untimely passing of my FIL. Now I started 2010 with a lot of hope (and several more blogs which are wasting away at the moment) and these events have shaken me off my newly found course a bit. But I am committed to getting back on solid footing and making 2010 my year. A year that I can look back on and say that was a year that I lived. Truly lived. So I'm starting the New Year over.
Losing a loved one can drain passion from life. It can make the world seem colder and more lonely. Or it can inspire you to breathe a little deeper, hug a little longer, and live a little better. So in my 2010 reboot, I am choosing the latter. I am choosing life.
So once again, I begin my climb up the mountain. A little shaky maybe but I'm still climbing. Can't say I won't lose my footing again but if I do, I will dust myself off and start climbing again. Because as many have said before me, life is not about the destination but the journey or if you prefer, as John Lennon said in his beautiful song, "Darling Boy", life is what happens when you are busy making plans.
Close your eyes,
Have no fear,
The monsters gone,
He's on the run and your daddy's here,
Before you go to sleep,
Say a little prayer,
Every day in every way,
It's getting better and better,
Out on the ocean sailing away,
I can hardly wait,
To see you to come of age,
But I guess we'll both,
Just have to be patient,
Yes it's a long way to go,
But in the meantime,
Before you cross the street,
Take my hand,
Life is just what happens to you,
While your busy making other plans,