Monday, July 26, 2010

Day 332 or Retracing My Steps

I've been thinking a lot about steps. Taking Steps. Baby Steps. Every journey begins with a single step. Etc. When you start on a path in life, there is a time when the paths run parallel. You can look over at the path and have the comfort that it is still waiting for you. That you have a choice. A couple of steps and you are back on that path.

But slowly and ever so subtly, the paths start to diverge a little more. There has been no dramatic right turns. You didn't miss the left at Albuquerque. You can even still see it. You know it would be a little harder to get there, a few extra steps, but you still hold the comfort that with a little effort, you could still resume that path.

And then one day, you lose sight of the other path. At first, you're not disturbed. You know that you just saw it. Yesterday. Or maybe the day before. Definitely, no more than two days ago. But the day comes when you can't remember when you last saw it. Is it still there?

For me, that is the time that I start to question my path. Did I take the right turns? Did I make the right steps? I often suffer from the grass is greener syndrome and likely I would have these questions whichever path I might have chosen.

So what do you do when you find yourself here -- solidly on one path having lost sight of the other? Do you run around the woods looking for the lost path? Do you commit more fully to your current path? Or do you stand frozen wondering which path is the "right" path?

18 comments:

Aging Mommy said...

Ooohhh I like this, you have your thinking cap on again :-) Well you know some paths once diverged from cannot be reclaimed but honestly most really are still there, even if right now you cannot see them, it will just require a little more effort, a refocusing in order to now get there. If you want something badly enough then it will become doable.

Leiah said...

When I start to have these very same questions I remember what my daddy told me - "The grass may be greener on the other side of the fence but remember it too still has to be mowed." It took me a while to figure that one out but when I did, wow. The path writes the chapters of your life's story - you're the one with the ability to edit.

The Ninja said...

Honey...you stay on your path, unless you have an opportunity to venture down the other one...remember, everything happens for a reason!!

From Tracie said...

You must be in the same woods that I'm in. I think that I have decided to commit more fully to my current path...run with it if you will =) My husband is still looking for the lost one. Moving forward can be more difficult when there is two of you to make decisions.

Sonya said...

I question my path almost daily..everyone always says that their path put them where they are today and they have no regrets..that might be true but I sometimes wonder if I should of taken that left instead of a right. Oh well..when in doubt,blaze your own path until you get to where you want to be:)

Tracie said...

I try not too think too hard. I just trust that everything works out ok in the end.

chitra said...

After taking a course of action there is no pointing repenting the same.Just go ahead and face it....that's all.

Erin said...

I am completely lost myself right now, so I have no business guiding anyone else in any direction.

;-)

But I love your post!

Cyrene said...

Lovely post. A previous commenter said that there are those whose paths put them where they are and have no regrets - I am one of such people.

I am grateful for the life I've been given and the choices I made. Whether good or bad, they have all led me to this day and time and I would not trade it for anything.

Tiffany said...

i was up in bed until 1am talking about such things with my husband. how, had a made certain decisions in my career, relationships, early on, things might be different now. when i think about it too much, i get a headache--just have to keep my eyes forward.

blueviolet said...

I am so utterly confused now! I can't possibly be of assistance.

Marilyn (A Lot of Loves) said...

I stop to consider where I've been, where I am, and where I'm going. I consider all possibilities, make a decision and follow THAT path and forget about the rest.

When did I become my Mom said...

Hmmm that's a good question.
I guess I feel a twinge realizing the other path is out of sight right now, but I try to live my life committed to the "now" and without regrets.

I feel that if I'm meant to see that path then it'll wind into view again when I'm ready for it. You never know what surprises Life has in store for you!

Melani said...

I am not sure what path I am on these days...I think I am running around the woods looking for the lost path, so to speak.

Great post!

Unknown Mami said...

I guess it's time for GPS.

Betty Manousos:cutand-dry.blogspot.com said...

I've been always wondering if I have chosen the right path. I need always new decisions to make..things are changing all the time!
Loved your insightful post, Tracie.

Big big hugs!
B xx

Holly said...

I think I freeze for awhile and then reevaluate and then head on down the path that seems to have chosen me...and try to tweak it and make it my own.

Doreen McGettigan said...

I drive my self literally crazy deciding which way to go when driving a car..so when it comes to driving my life..oh boy..When I make a decision I usually stick with it and make it work..
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