Day 146 or I Told You So

So my husband has been wanting me to see a doctor for over a week. But I was convinced that it was merely a virus and the doctor would say that there is nothing to do but wait it out. I hated to waste a co-pay (money is tight!) and well, it seemed a colossal waste of effort. And... I was wrong. (No, that didn't taste very good saying those words). I had an infection that required antibiotics. And now my husband has the power of "I told you so".

Now "I told you so" is usually my territory. And I think that is probably common in a lot of households. I make sure he takes care of himself. I would have sent him to the doctor last week. I would have taken my children last week. As a mom, I wouldn't have thought twice about the co-pay for my children. So the question is why wouldn't I do the same for myself?

I think too often, we moms put ourselves very far down on our to-do lists. And while it is very well-intended, you know where that path leads. Seriously, by putting myself so low on my famous lists, how many other things didn't I get done. If I had broken down and dealt with how badly I was feeling (I didn't blog for five days, for goodness sake!), I would have been up to speed by now. The fact is that I was penny-wise and pound foolish with my health. So in my Spartan-like stubbornness (so maybe I do know where my daughter gets it!), I had less energy to take care of my family or home. In reality, in the name of my family, I didn't just martyr myself, I martyred my family.

So, yes. My husband told me so. And he was right. So I'm going to have to swallow that. But next time, maybe I won't be so stubborn. Because I want to do the best for my family. And because in this house, if anyone is going to say "I told you so", I want it to be me.