Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Day 300 or I Can't Tie Back the Hands of Time

So tonight is my 300th night of this project and I have 13 nights remaining. Sadly as the clock runs down, I have actually avoiding posting. Why? Because I haven't had the perfect post. The perfect thing to say. I wanted to end on a bang but I realized that I was ending on a whimper solely by being paralyzed by fear. I do this more often than I like to admit. Especially in this "growing" forum.

And you know what stinks about that? As much as I have grown in this year of being 38, I can still allow perfectionism and fear stop me from something that I love. So fear not, loyal readers and friends, it seems that there is plenty of fodder for the next incarnation of 38Traci.

So I am making a promise. For the next twelve nights, perfect post or not, inspiration or not, I shall post. I hope to see you guys around these last few days. There is still time join me on my Heifer challenge. We almost have enough for a flock of chickens. So please click here to help.

I can't believe what an amazing ten months this has been. I have received so much more than I ever imagined. Made so many more friends than I could have believed. Learned from you and about myself. Had more fun than a Mexican Cruise -- well, maybe not more fun, but lots of fun, nonetheless! I have lost a lot this year but I have also gained. There has been good and bad but in short (or not so short -- this is me writing, after all), it's been the best of times...

Tonight's the night we'll make history
Honey, you and I.
'Cos I'll take any risk
To tie back the hands of time
And stay with you here tonight.

I know you feel these are the worst of times
I do believe it's true.
When people lock their doors and hide inside
Rumor has it, it's the end of Paradise.
But I know
If the world just passed us by Baby, I know
I wouldn't have to cry. No, no.

The best of times
Are when I'm alone with you
Some rain, some shine
We'll make this a world for two.

Our memories of yesterday
Will last a lifetime.
We'll take the best, forget the rest
And someday we'll find
These are the best of times.....

The headlines read: "These are the worst of times"
I do believe it's true.
I feel so helpless like a boat against the tide
I wish the summer wind could bring back Paradise
But I know,
If the world turned upside down Baby, I know
You'd always be around. My, my.

The best of times
Are when I'm alone with you
Some rain, some shine
We'll make this a world for two.
When I'm alone with you

Everything's alright.
When I'm alone with you
You brighten up the night
When I'm alone with you................................


Marilyn (A Lot of Loves) said...

I will be sure to see what your last 12 posts will be about. Will be actually be closing down this blog or moving on with it but slightly tweaked?

Tracie said...

I'm glad to have been along on your journey. Totally understand being paralyzed by fear. It's been a life long issue of mine.

Claudya Martinez said...

But I don't want it to be over. Can't you just flip the calendar back a few months and pretend?

Stop by when you get a chance. I moved to Wordpress and I'm not sure I got the feeds transferred correctly.

chitra said...

Love visiting and reading your posts. So come what may,entertain us.

Felicity Grace Terry said...

If I was waiting to post a perfect post, I'd never post at all.

A great post Traci, for what its worth, I love visiting.

Liz Mays said...

I'm so glad we crossed paths as you've been working on this project!!! And I'm thrilled that you'll continue on with blogging. :)

Mandee said...

Don't give up now! Thanks for stopping by my blog by the way, I have been terrible about visiting as well!

Good luck on your journey. Look forward to reading on... :)

Nancy C said...

Fear has kept me from so much. Thanks for sharing my thoughts (how do you do that?)